Always dreaming having u holding my hand walking down the aisle, with friends and relatives at the sides clappings with joy.. Yes, this dream practically make me feels so fortunate with hopes.. But somehow or rather when days passed, it seems like i'm gonna wake up from this beautiful dream. It's not that wonderful and not that perfect! Lady, u gonna wake up.. Face the reality, face the reality that guys and girls are different,face the reality that mens flirt, face the reality that mens cant do w/o girls.. There's always this thin line affecting, but u always took the first steps to cross over it..

Munhon and Justin birthday celebration @ le bar
12th December~

27th Nov (Relative's wedding)

I knew it right from the start i couldn't be alone without anyone by my side. I'll start imagine things, i'll start recalling back on that morning my dad called up crying telling me liang's gone, then everythings just flow back.. His smile, his voice, his laughter, his joke, his scolding and even the feeling that he's just beside.. Maybe like everyone says i think too much, but those feeling couldnt be false.. He said "we shall play mj one day when wee's is free" always always i did ask him for mj with my friends, but i'm always the one putting him aeroplane.. He said we shall celebrate xmas over at his place, he provide drinks while i provide turkey and the rest jus bring whatever things.. Xmas is not here yet while u? There won't be anymore 5 good cousins, there'll only left with 4 person on the cousins photo.. Some says "time wil heal" yes, it heal. But it only heal the part that we accept the fact but not those heartache and memories, i dunno... I feel scared, i feel pain,i feel that every single things is wrong.. Whenever i passby any building i'll jus look at a certain storey and imagine he jump, i dunno hw he could suffer those pain, i dunno hw he've the courage to jump but we believe everythings that happen is not his will..

The day when i attended Mcron's wake i question myself, "what if one day one of my family member pass away? What will i do?" It happened too fast too soon! I just knew the answer yst~ It's a kind of sadness, a kind of heartache no one can feel.. He choose to end the journey, he choose to end his life this way,he made everyone cried with heartpain~His 22nd birthday become his death day..
We have so much unsolve question why is he doing this without leaving anything behind, not even a note but it still come out with no answer..We knew that he's not the kind of person whom wil end his life and we knew he doesn't want to die and he has the will to survive.. But he still have to leave, leave without words, without anything jus throwing the one tt cares for him behind~
I believe he'll have a good life ahead,may god bring this kind and good guy along with you~ Be a good child when u Reincarnate..

Dearest, We've been cousin for 19th years.. You brought joy and fun to our family, you're always the one whom can think calmly and tell is what's right and wrong, everyone in the families doted on u most cause you're always so sensible and u make no one worried for u before compared to the 4 of us.. But why things turn out this way? LiangLiang, make your way up there without any worries.. You'll always be in our heart, you'll always be our family members~Will always try to make ourselves free on the dec 1st to celebrate your birthday with u! Rest in peace, love u!